If Today is the Last Day of my Life

March 15, 2017

Well death is inevitable, we all die someday. 1000s of people are dying everyday and we can be one of them, Who Knows? 1000s of disease carrying bacterias and viruses are freely flying in the air we breathe, what if our immune system suddenly fail? What if the heart and lungs that have been working since our birth might finally get tired and stop working. What if, while going home you get hit by car or while sleeping you fell from your bed and die. What if the food you eat get stuck in your windpipe and suffocate you to death………….Well there are 1000s of things that can kill you and there are 1000s & 1000s ways you can die.

Well, life is full of risk. No one knows what will happen next; today can be the last day of your life.

About 4-5 days ago I was just wandering over a book “100 Ways to Motivate Yourself” by Steve Chandler. #1 was “Get on your Death Bed”, I also remembered the technique by Steve Jobs to distinguish important things in life: “What should I do, if today is the last day of my life?” One of my teachers Dr. Wayne Dyer used to say, “Teachers will appear when you are ready.” I guess I am ready to learn because this isn’t the first time I have heard this thing. And I don’t think this is your first time too.

So from that day (since 4-5 days ago) I started writing this everyday:

If today is the last day of my life, what should I do?

  1. Enjoy your breathing, enjoy your water, food and enjoy this moment.
  2. Reach out to everyone you love and adore.
  3. Try to help and lift more people. Personally I wish I could write +2000-3000 words a day, perhaps +40,000 words a day if it is even possible. So that I could help more people, so that 100 or 1000s years from now, Homo Sapiens Sapiens Sapiens (nerd stuff), the future generations of that time will read it and change their life.

Well, currently I may not be able to apply all those things, not today but it will certainly act as remainder about what is important and what’s not. This is just the Version 1.0, so there are lots of things to be improved in future.

So, here’s the question:

How would you live, if this is your last breathe, if today was the last day of your life?

How would you eat, if this is your last meal?

How would you drink, if this is the last bottle of water?

How would you talk or interact to your loved ones, if this is your last interaction?

Everyday we worry and think about things that aren’t going to matter in next years or in couple of days, we worry about what other will think about us, how should be act, how should we react, what should we wear, how should we show off. And we ignore the important things, we take them as granted, we waste our time and resources without thinking that this could be our last one. Without thinking today can be the last day of our life, without thinking this could be the day we have to leave all our belongings, all our status and riches and all the people we loved and who loved us. Without thinking this could be the end of all the words and dreams that were inside our head and heart but were never spoken or realized.

Well, this can be my Last Post, So I hope I made best use of it.

Things are going Rough and Tough

March 11, 2017
It’s 2017/03/11, Well my deadline is coming, just 53 days remaining to make my dream into reality. I am feeling pressured and feel like I am going to lose everything, everything I have achieved and even everything I have hoped of achieving. I am feeling stressed. Well, I have already taken huge risk, I have left the mainstream science field, I have abandoned the idea of going to foreign country to study like many of my friends, moreover studied Bachelor in Arts, (which is actually going to lead me nowhere) so that I could buy myself more time to focus in my passion and this thing.

It actually begun last year after I finished my class 12 (2015), I was hopeful, I thought it wouldn’t be that hard, as this is the field I love. But things weren’t going as I was expecting, it wasn’t as I had hoped for. At the same time I had to run for making my house in Murgiya, it was really bad, those bureaucratic works and delay in governmental work hindered me to focus well on my work.

Moreover my brother (Mother’s Sister’s son) broke his arm. I had to stay there for about 1 month, OMG. During that time everything started to derail, I stopped exercising, my routine failed, I wasn’t able to making things done. After that I had to run for house, it was frustrating. My mom had forced me to do it, even I hadn’t wanted to do it, I felt so depressed and angry at life, I just wanted to die. But I did it, everyday I had to travel about 50 + 50 Km in Bus and walk about +2-3 Km. During that time, I started focusing on my breathing, I used to count my breathing till 100 and again return to 0, this helped me to keep going, this helped me to stop thinking about depressing thoughts. I had to do everything alone, previously I thought my (Suraj) brother will be my companion but he had broken his arm, so I had to make all those effort myself, except for some days when Grand Father used to come with me. For next 3-4 months my day went like this. For me this thing was meaningless, I wasn’t enthusiastic about it, it was just a waste of my time and energy. I was suffocating and suffering a lot, inorder to free myself and get little bit of relief I started to focus on my breathing. I was quarelling with mom in the phone, I wasn’t happy, I wished to die.

After that, came the exam of 1st year, I had to study for it. After giving exam I again started to focus on my Blog.

Slowly Slowly I again started to get back on track, I started exercising, autosuggesting, bathing and meditating. I made a goal to earn $1000 (well money isn’t an important thing but it’s something I need to be alive, to feed myself) per month in May 4th 2017. Well I chose this day because I had filled the US DV form for me and my mom, and it said the result will come in May 4th, it is my first time, so I am really hopeful. But I know, I can’t do anything about it. But guess it’s always good to have a backup plan.

During last 6-7 months I have made a tremendous progress in my morning ritual and routine, but I wasn’t making good progress in my Blogging area. But in last couple of weeks I am making lots of progress but still they aren’t adequate. I am working hard, my leg hurts because of continuous sitting in (partial) lotus position studying books and trying to write things, I believe if I make it a habit then I will be good at it, as it is also beneficial for my back and spine.

Moreover there is no net in home, I have to go to Butwal to my Brother’s house for publishing my post and articles. I have to use mobile data for using internet. So, if I make this post today then consider that it is being done using mobile data. Well, it’s actually a good thing, nowadays I haven’t been wasting my time by watching Youtube Video and mindlessly browsing Quora and web. But I don’t know, is it because there is not net in home or am I really starting to get more serious in my Goal.

Talking about achieving my dream, I haven’t lost hope but I feel melancholy inside me, like I am losing something, like everything will be lost if it don’t happen. I know I must keep going on, I can’t do anything but push harder, I can’t do anything but create new plan, look for new ways and try to give everything I have.

While writing this article, I remembered the story from Napolean Hill’s book Think and Grow Rich, titled something like “Three Feet From Gold”. A man invests heavily in gold mining equipment and goes to mine the Gold. He keeps on digging and keeps on going below. At some point, signs of Gold mine start to appear, but it gets lost. He tries hard to find it again, but couldn’t. He gives up his dream and sells all his equipment at the fraction of actual cost. The next man, who had bought the equipment, calls the mining expert (perhaps geologist) and asks him to examine the mine. The expert says it’s a natural phenomenon and the gold must be just below it. So, the man starts mining and after just 3 feet, he finds his treasures, he makes millions out of that mine by just digging 3 feet. Hence the first man who sold his dream and equipment learns the very good lesson, “Don’t give up and try everything you can.” Later, using that same lesson, that same man makes fortunes in his business.

I guess I have to do the same thing, go till the very end and try everything I can.

Small Habits To Follow

February 26, 2017

(This single line represent single repetition of my Auto-suggestion (or Prayer). There are currently 126 days in this photo and can record upto 143 days.)

  • Auto-Suggest Daily: Since more than last 6 months or so, I have been regularly auto-suggesting. Currently I auto-suggest 3 times in the morning, just after waking up and three times in the evening, after my dinner.

In the beginning I used to do it for 100 times a day but thinking it was unsustainable and time consuming, I started to reduce it and reached this point.

So, what’s the benefit:

  1. Gives me the right mindset: Well, I can’t give you exact direct proof but I believe it has made tremendous effect on me unconsciously. In past I used to exercise and meditate but they were irregular, I used to do it for few months and leave it, again start after few months and again leave it after sometimes. But since last +6 months or so, I have been exercising, meditating and bathing with cold water daily. The only different thing this time is: I have been auto-suggesting daily. I believe I have been literally programming myself.
  2. Acts as Trigger: This is the first thing I do daily after waking up. It’s easy, I don’t feel resistance just repeat the same phrases, quotes, principles and goal everyday three times. I don’t even have to look at copy, I have memorized them. This prepares me for exercising. I exercise right after auto-suggesting. In the book Power of Habit by Charles Duhigg, he says habit contains Trigger-Routine-Reward. Auto-suggesting is the trigger for me to exercise. It’s so automatic. (Auto-Suggest) – (Exercise) – (Meditate) – (Clean the Room) – (Bath with Cold Water) – (Plan Ahead) – (Start Working)………………..It’s getting more and more automatic and becoming strong habit. 

    (Well, this one is little bit old, about 26 days old, currently I have replaced “Practice Typshala” with “Create a Video”. Moreover I write the same thing everyday, I am just trying to form a habit and it works. I have also created my own Youtube Channel and doing pretty well:Waytolive.co

    (I write the Part “Things I am grateful for” and “Things I can be in Future” only at night after auto-suggesting. )

    • Plan A Day Ahead: Just after bathing with cold water, I write these plans in my notebook everyday, I have been doing this thing since couple of months. It has given me better focus and differentiate between what is important and what is not. I believe it’s also programming and reinforcing myself myself to do what I want to do.
    • I believe in “Fake it Till you Make it.”

    These are just some of my best of the best habit that can be followed within 5–10 minutes.

    If you are interested more in my other habits I am trying to develop then you can go to my link: My Daily Routine: Part 1

    This is just the part of my journaling and saving my life in words. I hope I inspired you.

    Originally it was posted in Quora as “Simple things to follow which takes less than 5 minutes.”.

Struggling Through Dark Days

February 26, 2017

It was about 1–2 years ago, I used to had depression and was very sad, I had very low confidence. And everything was wrong, I felt like suiciding, not living anymore. I was angry at everyone even at God.

What kept me going?

  1. My Mom : I am the only child and immediate family of her, she is divorced and I am the only one with whom she can rely on. During the hard time, I tried to live just for her. Since my birth, she has been struggling hard to keep me alive and give me better future, this helped me to avoid the Idea of Killing myself and abandoning her. (Well, I don’t know if there was any chance of my suicide, but it was really hard time, I was hopeless with life, depressed. Since I never tried of anything to hurt myself, I don’t if I would have ever suicided. But my Mom kept me going.) The Idea of only living for someone I love and care kept me going.
  2. I surrendered: I started to search for hope and meaning of life spirituality, I listened to Dr Wayne Dyer’s I can See clearly Now, read Eckart Tolle’s Power of Now. I started to turn toward spirituality. I Surrendered: Amazing Synchronicity Let Go. Let God.
  3. I just Breathe: I started counting my breaths inorder to avoid unnecessary thinking. I used to count till 100 and again begin from 0. After reading Power of Now and various things I realized Breathing is Everything.
  4. I Kept Dreaming: I always dreamed big, I always tried to remain hopeful no matter how hard the thing was. I always thought that good things can happen in life if only I worked hard and struggle more.

Currently, I am good. I have life purpose, I have a Goal to live and strive for.

Since Past +6 months I have been regularly Exercising, Meditating and Bathing with Cold water. I guess this is releasing hormones and good chemicals in my body to make me feel good and avoid depression. This has made me hopeful and stronger mentally and physically.

You can read them here:

Exercise Ritual: 1

Cold Bath Ritual: 1

Daily Routine: Part 1

I hope it inspired you.

Originally it was posted in: Quora

Exercise Ritual: 1

February 24, 2017

Although, I had slept yesterday at around 12 AM (I was unable to sleep because I slept during the day for 2-3 hours), moreover I was sharing my work to my friends over messenger and I was so excited about it. But anyway, I woked up at 5 AM with the alarm.

Even though, I didn’t felt like waking up, I woked up. I finished Auto-Suggesting at 5:15 AM.

Here goes a Quote, “Self-discipline is the ability to make yourself do what you should do, when you should do it, whether you feel like it or not.” –Elbert Hubbard.

(While exercising, I listen to Motivational video, I play it in background in my laptop.)

I started doing Diamond Push Up at 5:15 Am.

After that I did Abs Crunch at 5:32 AM. I do it 50*3 REPS i.e 150 REPS. I don’t know it’s exact name and what exactly it does to body. But it act as Buffer between my two Diamond Pushups.

Next Push Up at 5:40 AM. 50 REPS.

Heel Raise at 5:41 AM. 50*3 REPS, total of 150 REPS.

Last Push Up at 5:43 AM. 50 REPS.

Chair Dips at 5:44 AM. 50*3 REPS, total of 150 REPS.

(Seen those stacks of copies and pencils, it’s not mine. Mom is going to donate those copies, pencils, pens and volleyball to the student of Government School. 52 more bags are remaining to be bought.)

First Sit Up at 5:53 AM. 50 REPS. Well, currently I am not doing full sit ups, I am just doing partial, enough to create pressure in my stomach. You know it’s hard, really hard to do 50*3 Perfect Sit Ups, so for now I am sticking to easier sit-up form (Partial One) and will increase the intensity with time.

First Dumbell Lift at 6:02 AM. 50 REPS.

(I used this weight and Dictionary as a stand for my Iphone to take picture.)

I use this as Dumbell because I am not eating any diet, just Dal Bhat (Rice, lentil and vegetables) twice a day and 3-4 Roti (Bread) between them. Moreover I want to be slow and take my time to make this exercising habit strong and super automatic. I also don’t earn money and I don’t want to give my mother extra stress by spending on everything I love to. So, I will just wait till I make my own money before I buy my own personal set of Dumbells.

I have been making use of what has been locally available to me since my early days, about 7-8 years ago I used to use single brick. After 1-2 years, I used two bricks, I bore hole in the middle of Bricks and connected them by Rod. It took me 2-3 weeks of continuous effort to bore the hole. I used to work before and after the school with hammer and a blunt rod, I had to be slow and soft otherwise the brick will break.

Second Sit Up at 6:04 AM. 50 REPS.

Second Dumbell Lift at 6:06. 50 REPs.

Third Sit Up at 6:08. 50 REPS.

Third Dumbell Lift at 6:09 AM. 50 REPS.

Other than just exercising I also started doing few Yoga and stretch. About 2-3 months ago, I used to had lower back pain, I thought it was due to cold bath. But I wasn’t in the idea of giving up bath due to Back Pain, I thought of dying in the battle field. Later, I searched over internet for remedy, then I found these three over the Youtube. It has worked well. Since I started doing all these three in same time, so I don’t know which one has worked. I think I will stick to all these three as for now.

Flat back bent at 6:12 AM. I don’t know what is it called. 3 REPS.

(Back Exercise) Camel and Cat at 6:19 AM. 3 REPS.

Yoga at 6:23 AM. 3 REPS. I don’t exactly know it’s name.

Body bent at 6:36 AM. I touch my toe with hand without bending my knee. 3 REPS.

(Well, even though I have written “Running” in my Daily Routine I don’t do it because I don’t want to hurry, I want to make slow and stable progress. I am just 20 years old and I have enough time ahead, so I will just wait and make this current routine more strong and better before jumping into something little bit hard. I will just wait and be mentally prepared for running.)

Well, I am not becoming muscular by doing these thing, I am hardgainer, I have skinny genes. So it will be very very hard for me to gain healthy muscular weight. But I am happy about it, I am becoming healthy and strong. It’s good to exercise, there are 1000s of benefits of exercising from ageing slowly, increase in immunity, better emotional health to becoming energetic and active.

By the way it generally takes me less than 25 minutes to exercise but today it took me about 85 minutes, since I was also capturing my photos.

It’s been more than 6 months, it feel awesome and automatic. It has become a habit. I don’t think I have missed a single day. In the beginning I started from small step but over time made tremendous progress. Beginning days were hard and painful.

Well, it’s not that, I started exercising in just last 6 months, I first did my Push Up when I was in class 6 about 8-9 years ago, I first meditated about 4-5 years ago when I was in class 9. But I wasn’t regular, I used to do it for few months and leave it, and again start after couple of weeks or months, and again leave it. I wasn’t regular. But since last 6 months I have been so-so regular. So, you may not achieve the same thing as I did, in just 6 months, it might take years or more, but just keep doing and keep going. As long as you keep going, you will make it someday.

After exercising, I did Meditation from 6:38 AM to 7:03 AM. I meditate by sitting in the same chair I used for Dip because sitting in lotus position gives me tingling in my legs, it hurts and my legs sleeps. I count my breath till 500 times.

Then I Cleaned my room by watching Brian Tracy Seminar in Youtube from 7:03 AM to 7:54 AM.

Then Bathed at 7:54 AM.

If everything goes right then I will generally finish my whole routine in less than 2 hours.

I hope it inspired you. Moreover I am just recording my daily life for my future self to learn about my past, it’s just part of my journaling. This is just a Personal Blog.

Cold Bath Ritual: 1

February 24, 2017

After exercising, meditating and cleaning my room I started Cold Bath at 7:54 AM.

Since last +6 months I have been bathing regularly with cold water everyday.

Well, it’s not always I fold my cloth like this before bathing, it’s just for taking this Picture.

Well, it’s 7:54, there is still some amount of fog. I was late today, pretty late. As I was capturing my photos while doing exercise which took about 85 minutes instead of normal time of 25 minutes. Moreover I also had to go to dairy to deliver the Buffalo’s milk because Grandfather had ache in his leg. Normally if everything goes right then I will bath before 6:45 AM. In the beginning when I used to wake up late at 7 AM, 8 AM or even 11 Am, then I used to bath even at 12 or 1 PM, then only I would eat my lunch. But things has improved a lot, nowadays I mostly wake up at 4 or 5 AM.

Moreover I chose to bath outside rather than in Bathroom because it feel much free and open. It feels good to bath in outside or may be I am habituated to do so. And I don’t use water from Tubewell, we have a tap water from the hill stream, it’s tasty and natural. Well Tubewell water is also good but is not as good as water from the Fresh stream of Hill.

Since I bath outside, Don’t worry about what I wear, I am not like those guys who just wear their underwear while bathing even in Open, it’s disgusting. I wear shorts while bathing, I have two Shorts and two Vests that I wear turn by turn. I wash them daily and put them in SUN for drying.

While bathing I am not the big fan of giving myself Shock by pouring the water from the top of head. Well, being Hindu, it’s our tradition to pour the water from Top of head and chant Hare Ram, Hare Krishna or Jai Ma Durga etc inorder to cope with shock by cold water. But who cares about that, I don’t. So, I do it slowly, first of all I paint my legs with water, just paint it. Then put some soap, scrub and let it be. After that I paint my hand, put some soap, scrub it and let it be. After that comes the turn of upper body, I also paint my upper body with water, then put some soap and scrub. While Shampooing my hair, I gently pour as little water as possible just to wet my hair, then shampoo it. This allows my body to loose body heat slowly and hence feel less cold and less resistance to bath. Finally I pour the water and rinse my body with water. I use about 10 litres of water to bath.

During winter when the cloth wasn’t getting dried due to absence of SUN, I used to put Wet Shorts on and bath with it, inorder to prevent the shorts I was wearing from getting wet. And after bathing I wore the used shorts instead of washing it. I didn’t gave myself excuse to miss even a single day of bathing. Now it feels automatic to bath.

Benefits of Bathing with Cold Water: Well, if you search in Internet about benefit of bathing with cold water then you will get 100s of good points from things like improve in immunity, increase in will power to increase in Sperm Count (Well I don’t have to worry about the later one, not currently).

Personally, I have found it to be one the Great Habits to Cultivate. I feel refreshed and cleaned. I feel awesome and amazing. I get new kind of energy after bathing, it feels vibrant and fresh.

After bathing, I wash my clothes and plan my day ahead. This is my work place or office you may call. I put the laptop in height because I work by sitting in chair

If everything goes right, then my all these routine will get finished in less than 2 hours.

My Daily Routine: Part 1

February 02, 2017

In past 6 months or so, I have made tremendous progress. I like to mention my routine and create a personal blog for future use.

My daily routine is to:

1. Wake up, then autosuggest 3 times.

2. Exercise and then meditate.

3. Clean my room and bed. Then I will bathe with cold water and wash my clothes.

4. Then I plan my day.

5. Then I try to work on my project, in which I am still lagging. I am procrastinating here, I spend my day watching youtube, browsing quora. But I am still improving and trying to stand up.

In the past 6 months or so I have been regularly doing three core things exercising, meditating and bathing with cold water.

In the past +102 days as shown in above by lines, I don’t think I have missed a single day, doing my core habits like Exercising, Meditating and Bathing with cold water. Even while I was in relative house during his wedding, I tried to do miniature and simple form of those habits. In the beginning I used to wake up late, (Sometime early too) like 7, 8, 9, 10 or even 11 Am, but I never gave myself excuse to give up doing those things, I bathed even it was cold outside.

In the beginning (about 6 months ago) it used to take me about more than 1 hour (or even a whole day I guess) to just do less than 100 diamond pushups in many sets perhaps in 10-12 or more. But today, it takes me less than 5 minutes to do +150 diamond pushups in 3 sets. Beginning days were the hardest one.

But this wasn’t the initial points, I started exercising (doing push ups) when I was 12/13 years, I started meditating at around 15 but I wasn’t regular. I was random, I did it for sometimes and used to leave for some more because of failure. Again start with new hopes and expectation after few days.

Everyday, I autosuggest for three times in the morning and three times in the night after dinner. Then I draw a lines as shown in above figure.

In the beginning (or 6-7 months ago), I was autosuggesting 100 times a day, then after thinking it wasn’t sustainable and stable I reduced it to 50 times a day, then 20 times a day, then 10, currently I do it 6 times a day, three in the morning and three in the evening.

While autosuggesting, I read these four pages stuffs six times in a day. Well, it wasn’t the same in the beginning, it was different, I just tweaked it and tweaked it to make it like this. Since few days I am reading them loudly (not so loudly to disturb other) believing it will help me to clear my speech as I am not a fluent speaker (I am little bit stammer).

Currently, I use this thing as dumbbell. Back in the days I used a single brick. Then I tried something more, I bore the hole in the middle of two bricks. I guess it took me 2-3 weeks, because bricks are hard and if you hit hard you might break it. I had only a rod and hammer as a tool, no drill or anything like that. So, once I bored the hole, I used the rod and two bricks with hole to make it like dumbbell. I guess it was about 7-8 years before.

This I wrote when I was 15 (in class 9) years old, researching over internet using my Nokia X3 and 2G network. I was enthusiastic about collecting information and recording it. These are the indexes or list of chapters you can say. At that same time, I started meditating, I was inspired by Singaporean Blogger Celestine Chua’s Be your best self, Live your best life and her philosophy.

I was always tough on myself, I had very very low self esteem and less self confidence, I was emotionally weaker, as I was away from my parents (abt 90% of my life and those 10% memory are also not good enough) I felt neglected by everyone and not admired, I was (still am) less social, I did had friend but I was less connected to them due to insecurity. So I thought improving myself and getting better was the way to be stronger and admired, so I tried to do more and be more, hence end up doing nothing. Most times I couldn’t withstand those toughness, I used to break and fail. But I again used to try with new approach.

I remember, at age 15 I thought about joining the army, so I dreamed big of joining the British. I made a time table to run at time 3:30 (or may it was 3 AM) because I had many things included in my time table. For couple of weeks, I ran +7-8 kms a day. One day, after running I came home, I was just standing then suddenly I started hallucinating, in my mind I was running in the bridge (Jholunge Pool), then I closed my eyes and I fell down. It felt like dreaming, I guess I actually slept while standing and brain paralysed my body which brain do to prevent you from moving in sleep. I got cut in my lips, but it wasn’t that bad. From then, I stopped running for sometime and never ran like that.

After SLC or class 10, during three months holiday, I researched over internet to write a book for Teenager of my country, I was inspired by book Teen Guide To Real World, which had most chapters published over internet. I published my book in Teenageguidance.wordpress.com

This was my time table of my past of age 15. It was too strict, I couldn’t follow it, but it never stopped me from setting high standard and raise the bar. I was always pushing myself.

Now I have realized, time table never works because life is full of uncertainity. But Routine really works almost perfectly.

I still have a long way to go. I am still pushing myself to become a pro blogger, I am still dreaming.

This is just “Fake It Till You Make It” policy.

My daily planning, well, it’s not actually planning I just repeat the same words everyday except for dates, I am trying to stick with habits and reinforce myself.

The “Things……………………………..” Stuffs I write after the dinner before sleeping. Currently it’s still morning here.

Today I waked up at 5 AM with alarm, Autosuggested three times. Then I read BBC INTL’ apps, which I am not supposed to but still since I am not used to waking up early so, it’s accepted inorder to prevent losing will power. Then at 5:32 I started exercise, I played a motivational video (I play the same one everyday), which I had downloaded from internet, there’s nothing espcl abt it. Then I meditated. After that I cleaned my room listening to a Audiobook of Napolean Hill’s book Success Through Positive Mental Attitude. At 6:44 Am, I bathed with cold water and washed my clothes. I planned my day like above picture. Yesterday I slept at around 9:45 PM, my ideal one is 10 PM

This is so far what I have achieved. Well, I am a wild dreamer. Even if I fail this time, I will again set much much higher standard till I collapse.

I guess whatever happened in my life, made me like this. I think, “What don’t kill you, makes you stronger.” There were times in my life I was extremely unhappy and self loathing about what happened in life, I felt like suicidal or hurting myself many times. But remembering my mom and all her sacrifice and hope for me, gave me strength to keep going, sometimes I lived just for her, to prevent her from being hurt.

(Edit: Sometimes Surrendering really works. There was a time being inspired by great spiritual teachers like Eckhart Tolle, Dr Wayne Dyer I had surrendered. I tried to find meaning of life in spirituality when things were tough. Just Letting Go and Letting God is all What all you need. I Surrendered: Amazing Synchronicity )

I was always hopeful things will be better, this has brought me here.

And still I am not bullet proof, I fail, I get hurt but I am hopeful things will get more better and better as long as I keep on dreaming and moving towards it..

I hope it inspired you.

(Note: Original Version of this article was published in: Quora (Click to view it) )